Sunday, February 3, 2008

Why Am I Jealous?

Why does it break my heart?
Whenever you and he are together
Never a distance apart
Under any condition or weather

Why does it hurt inside?
When you and he are holding hands
Walking any path side by side
And you stand wherever he stands

Why do I continuously bleed?
When I see you staring at his face
And every word in his lips you read
In your every thought, it’s him you can’t erase

Why do I always spare a glance?
When you embrace him with your arms
When under the stars, you and he dance
When you defend him when the enemy harms

Why did destiny choose his side?
And shines upon you two with great radiance
Pushing every single obstacle aside
Defying every possible circumstance

Why are you in a state of bliss?
When your love story proceeds as it was meant
With you, waiting for his warm, loving kiss
What wonderful gift has heaven sent

Why don’t you even care?
About everything as long as he’s with you
When you’re already happy with the love you share
How can you love him so true?

Why did you choose him over me?
What does he have that I don’t?
Why is it always him that you see?
What will he do that I won’t?

Why do I envy your love for that man?
And torture myself with the lingering jealousy
I have mistaken every move you have done
Considering every truth as fallacy

Why did I lose trust?
And filled my heart with doubt
My faith has reduced to dust
I never meant to cast you out

Why have I always seen the flaws?
And not the happy moments we possessed
Now I realize that it was all my loss
I failed to see that I am indeed blessed

Why did I lose everything?
And my story which I thought has begun
Has now amounted to nothing
I can no longer see the sun

Why must it end like this?
With hearts broken and strings cut
Everything for me now ceased to exist
What lies ahead, I know not